Dare to Dream

Today i will continue to dream. Making the attempt to stay in the precious present , and let the future unfold and be revealed, despite the whirlwind of emotions. This is very difficult but necessary. A balancing act i believe with planning goals and being spontaneous.There are so many feelings and thoughts,that serenity is fleeting at best. I love the way i feel  when i can open up to others, and surround myself with their acceptance and nonjudgmental, understanding,  empathy. So much to write and share with you, now that i truly feel i have another avenue of expression and let those in my inner circle eat their popcorn, take a trip down THIS rabbit hole and be .......
  The future denotes fear and fear can be countered with faith.FEAR is F alse E vents A ppearing R eal. Given the choice the present seems much more sane. If i can concentrate on the present,  i can make the future~Hmmm interesting. However what about the illusion of controlling ones destiny? Just an illusion at best.
FYI~I am a recovering addict/alcoholic with 13 years of clean time by the grace of my Higher Power, and still at times just as sick as day one. My thinking can be unrealistic and twisted at times, and the key is to recognize those times and proceed in a healthy manner. Changing the unhealthy thinking and behaviors with new healthier ones. To diminish the frequency and intensity of above and proactively work on the goal of being  more healthy in all areas. Emotionally (feelings) , Spiritually (faith,trust), Mentally (thoughts and thinking), Physical (the acts of)
  A tall order indeed ,but what i have realized and am realizing about myself is I desire so badly~ the deep intimacy,  and like the Grinch have my heart swell with love and happiness.I just have a very hard time achieving this. The door is ajar, and i will be pushing it open more. Exploring, Experiencing, Dreaming towards that number one goal, and sharing my hopes dreams fears and desires with the one i love.  I still refuse to not~ Dare to Dream